Life. Holy crap LIFE. What do you do to me? My life has flipped so drastically in the past month. Where to begin? I guess it all begins with a guy. It's so soon and so fast, it's like my life is stuck on acceleration mode. This man came into my life and showed me how I deserve to be treated and adored. I was with Patrick for over two years, and not once did I feel the security of a commitment like what I've felt with Ray in the week of days we've spent together.

I never really believed all the people who told me I would find somebody who was more of a match for me than Patrick. I didn't think someone existed who could naturally and effortlessly provide me with the things that show me how much I'm valued and appreciated, and also need me in a way that furthers any sort of connection. I guess Life decided it was time to introduce me to a new caliber of man.

So now what? He lives in Hawaii. That means that life is showing me what I deserve, but I can't actually have it as an active part in my life. I'm up for expanding on our friendship, while also giving myself that much needed time to heal and move beyond any residual feelings for Patrick. I refuse to move fully into a new relationship if I still want to be with somebody else.

I heard a new song today, Near to You by A Fine Frenzy. I think I need to find the writer and give her a huge hug. The lyrics are sooooo exactly where I am right now.